Roll it over, new day, reset the stop watch
They tell me “get in the game,” too much stop, watch
Dribbling in circles like I’m running down a shot clock
Too afraid to throw it up, solid D, shot blocked

You didn’t know? Then lemme tell it to you first
Sunday had me feeling bad, Monday got me feeling worse
String of really bad luck got me feeling cursed
Gambling my life away, knowing it don’t reimburse

And the bright colors of Christmas came off the tree
Now winter’s here and everything is dead and bleak
Need a shot of life, feeling weak
Bruised up from choosing poor on this losing streak

And bills creep, seeing red, wallet reeling
Whatever money bought me then, now it’s panic feeling
Can’t believe I whine about the Senate dealings
When I broke glass a long time ago, debt ceiling

And new year’s resolutions, I wrote a few
Six days in, I broke a few
It’s a new year, but nothing’s new
Guess that why the newspaper saying everybody’s blue

And the cold’s setting in and the weather man
Said tomorrow’s temperature is gonna break the records and
A high of 10, whatever man
Couple of days, it’ll be warm weather again

But the holidays left me with deeper chill
Got what I wanted under the tree, but deeper still
I need a life that goes deeper, but it’s all uphill
And when it keeps getting steeper, what, you grin and deal?

Aftermath, silent night, after that
Nothing but pain when you try your hand at looking back
Hindsight ain’t 20/20, for some it’s gloss
But Christmas for others is just reliving loss

There used to be another stocking hanging by the fire
Now every single year your heart’ll be reminded
And tears are ok, I heard ‘em say
But who really wants to break down crying on Christmas Day?

Maybe your loss is of another kind
A childhood you never had and you can’t find
You see pictures of a happy family in green and red
And wonder what it’s like to have a feeling that you’ve never had

And Jesus is the reason? You know, his birth?
Then what’s the reason we ain’t got a speck of peace on earth?
Here’s your glad tidings… Nations fighting
And senseless violence demeaning what a life is worth

I look at monsters and tell myself I’m nothing like ‘em
But in my heart a storm’s raging, category 5’in
I feel like God is testing me, that’s normal, right?
But why he gotta keep testing me every single night?

I don’t love me, I need acceptance
I crave a love that’ll resurrect me to my senses
My instinct is to push you out, it’s senseless
Because I’m begging you to please break down my defenses

Alright, the truth, this track and why I’m on it
Soul vomit coming up from a year of wanting
Wish I knew where I was coming from or where I’m going
I hope it’s not out of reach, ‘case God knows I want it

“First day of the rest of your life”
And I feel like I’ve left behind the best of my life?
Been a year of my broken heart detesting life
Juxtaposed by warm greetings and festive lights

And I confess to you I’m just not right
And becoming a person that I just don’t like
I’m in the tunnel, what I wouldn’t give to see the light
January cold, man, I feel blue tonight

(It's all over but the shoutin')